Ok, so I know I haven't updated in a LONG time!! But im addicted to facebook now and well, blogging has been on the back burner. but if you want to add me to facebook just look me up!

So I had to post this about what happened tonight. So my friend Sharon and I went shopping late tonight to pick up a few things she needed. We went to Old Navy where they were having a killer sale. I even picked up a cool shirt for Tyler for 99 CENTS!!! I couldn't believe it. So anyways, I saw this jacket and it was on the sale rack but it didn't have a sale price on it so I thought I would ask the people up front if it was on sale. So I get up there and she rings it up and it rang up at the regular price for 24.00. She was like that's ridiculous and I don't think it should be that much. How does 4.99 sound? I was like HECK YA!! That sounds awesome haha. So I got a nice jacket for 5 bucks. I thought that was the deal of the year right there for me! So I thought I would share.

On a family update everything is going good here. All of Jacobs blood work and tests came back fine but she wants to see us in 6 weeks to see if he has gotten worse on anything or improved and we will do more testing then. We are all getting ready for Christmas and its been fun. Tyler is so into Christmas and Jacob is getting there.

We had Tylers bday party today with his cousin Caleb. Caleb was born 5 days before Tyler so it was fun to have their bdays together. They were so cute and got some fun stuff. I will post pictures later when I do my Christmas post.

My brother, Trent, was just called as Bishop!! I cant believe that I have a brother that's a bishop. That is so cool but I do feel bad for his wife haha. We were in their ward when he was announced and it was so cool to be there for his setting apart. Congrats Trent!!

I guess that's all from us for now. Hopefully I will post more...I know im slacking big time on it. Maybe in the new year I will get better!

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!! I know we sure did.

Today we had to get Jacob's blood drawn for some of the blood tests that we have to do. So we went in there and he was pretty nervous. He started crying when they put the needle in and then as soon as he saw the blood go in the vials he was fine. He thought it looked so cool that his "bleed" was going in the vials. So they had to take 3 tubes of blood from him. The first 2 were fine. Then she put the 3rd one in. And all of a sudden the blood stopped coming. So she jiggled the needle a little bit and put it in and out and still nothing. Jacob started screaming because he was really scared. All of a sudden he just went limp in my arms!! He had passed out!! I wont lie...I was really scared when it hap pend. Then a few seconds later when he woke up I was laughing because it was kinda funny. And those who know tom....knows that he HATES needles. And he will pass out just seeing them. So Jacob passing out was just funny because his daddy does the same thing. Then when I tried to tell Tom the story he made me stop in the middle of it because just talking about needles was making him light headed haha.

Tomorrow we go in for Jacob's MRI. And that I am pretty scared about. They are putting him out so they can do everything fine without having to worry about him. I am glad they are putting him out before they put the IV in or else he would probably pass out for them too.

Jacob has a new love. Its a little crazy and I'm not sure where this came from. But he LOVES infomercials!! He will actually sit and watch them and soak up all the info and then come tell me all about it. Well since Toms birthday is on Saturday, Jacob has been on the lookout for the perfect present. Well last night I think he found it (so he thinks). It was an infomercial about a sandwich maker. He told me about it for a good 5 min and if we were in the market for a new sandwich maker I would of been sold. Although, it doesn't take much to sell me on things if a 6 yr old can do it haha.

I couldn't put more pictures on the last post so here is a Halloween post. Our Halloween was a lot of fun. We all dressed up this year. Jacob was a rocker, Tyler was a dinosaur, Tom was a scary clown, and I was a hippy. We did things a little differently this year. Usually we go to my moms house and T or T in her neighborhood. But this year Jacobs little friend Max told his mom that he wanted us to come T or T with them this year. And because of the difficulties our kiddoes have with socializing and friends....we both thought this was huge! So the boys talked about it for a few weeks...every day at school and we knew this is something we needed to do for them. So we got together with them and had a great time. Us parents put on a pretty fun Halloween party for the kids at school. And boy were we tired after the party was done! I give those teachers lots of credit for having to do this every day. So here are some pictures of our Halloween.

This is toms scary costume. He dressed up for our wards Halloween party. The young men do a haunted house every year and tom loves to dress up and be involved since hes in the scouts with them.

This is a picture of Jacob and Max...his best friend. Max was a bloody doctor...haha.

This is max's cute little sister anna. She was a mermaid. Her and Tyler are the same age.

These are the pictures of Jacob's school party.

This is his whole class.

This is his classroom before they all came in to see the party. We surprised them with everything. None of the kids knew what was going on.

Here is me and 2 of the other moms. We were trying to be scary...aren't you guys scared?? haha

This is Jacob with 2 of his therapists. Well the cat one is his occupational therapist Becky and the witch is not his therapist but she treats him like her own. She is an awesome person!! Her name is Erin. And I'm not to sure who the other boy is...it was one of Becky's clients.

We had good luck going to the re eval appt and everything worked out great and we got another diagnosis. So thats all taken care of and we are so excited. Then we went to his orth appt and just what we figured, he has to get orthotics in his shoes. Thats not a big deal...its just going to be expensive so if anyone wants to donate money ill take it...haha. The nuro appt...its going to have to wait until we get some more news. We have to get Jacob some blood work done and an MRI. I am a little worried about the MRI because they will have to put him out for that. Here are a few pictures of the past few weeks. I just downloaded all the pictures off my camera.

Tyler and I had a fun playdate with Sharon and Rebecca a while ago at McD's. They were so cute and had a lot of fun together. I thought this picture was cute...and that other little boy was just someone there that wanted in the picture.

We went camping a few weeks ago and when we were driving back we got a flat tire!!! Thats what we get for parking our car in the dark...in a bunch of glass.

We are in need of some prayers this week. Jacob has some pretty big doctor appts coming up this week and I am nervous about all of them. Today he goes in for his re diganosis appt for autism. The state requires you to get another dx when the child turns 6 and this is the soonest we could finally get in. I am really nervous because this basically holds the fate of my son. If we dont get another diagnosis then all of his therapies will have to stop and he cant get therapy again. And if that happends, I dont know what I would do.

Then tomorrow we have an appt with an orthotic specialist to look at his feet. Since he is a toe walker and always has been there are some concerns about his feet. They are starting to turn in when he walks and he has a hard time walking flat footed. So we will probably have to get orthotics on his feet to help him walk better.

Then next thursday we have an appt with a Nerologist. Jacob has had some issues come up that now we need to see a nerologist. Its probably nothing, but we want to make sure, just in case there is something that we juust cant see. All doctors recomend getting an MRI just because autism could be caused by something else in the body somewhere.

We also have to make an appt with a hearing doctor to get his hearing checked. His speech therapist is having some concerns that he is having a hard time hearing so its always good to get that checked as well. But all of these appts are pretty scary because you never know whats going to come from them.

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers!!

I just thought I would put a little update on here about Jacobs school. He is doing AWESOME!! Since the scholarships came through, they are able to split the classes. So one class is for the advanced learners and one for the beginning learners. Which basically means they split the verbal and non verbal kids. Which is awesome for both groups!! That means that there is 10 kids in Jacobs class and 5 adults in the class. So the kids get a much better 1 on 1 ratio. Jacob is doing wonderful and his social skills are getting so much better. He has a little best friend named Max and him and Max are so good together. They talk to each other and engage in play with each other and its awesome to see them both act that way. We have been doing a huge assessment through his therapy and to see what he can and cant do. And so far everything on there has been that he can do it...and he does everything to where he should be at! That makes me so happy to know that in most places hes developing right where he should be. There are a few things where its very hard for him to do but that's nothing compared to what he CAN do! I have been very discouraged and stressed out this past week because everything seemed like it was coming crashing down on me. We had some good therapists quit, Jacob started to pick up some strange behaviors, his aggressiveness has been coming back, and Tom was going to be gone this weekend camping with the scouts and I didn't know how I was going to do it. So I went searching for some inspiration in the way of a poem or a story of something that would make me feel better. And this is the very first one I saw...and I knew it was put there just for me right at that time. This is Jacob almost 100% and so I wanted to post it so you all could read it.

I am Ethan:

You may not understand me, or the way I feel today.

You may not understand my reasoning for things I do or say.

The reasons why I’m so loud and say things over & over again,Why I run so differently or lose my homework every now & then.

I write my letters backwards and sometimes numbers too,and when in a conversation, I’ll say “Guess what” 100 times to you.

Too much noise, light, or excitement can set me in a spin.

I don’t like the way these pants feel rubbing against my skin.

I try to be good, but sometimes it’s hard to control,I have to do it, it’s an impulse, I don’t always do what I’m told.

Ketchup, Ranch and BBQ sauce on everything I eat,sometimes I have days that I just can’t sit still in my seat.

I like to talk a lot even when it’s out of turn,my mind plays tricks on me and interrupts what I’m trying to learn.

Sit up straight, wipe my face, and play ever so soft,some of these things

I have trouble with and I usually lose my train of thought.I didn’t mean to spill the milk mom, or slam the door so hard,everyone else is done with their homework, I don’t know where to start?

My heart’s as big as gold, my feelings get hurt too,I get sad, cry and have bad days just like you.

My brain works differently than other girls and boys,but one thing always holds true, I can give your life so much joy.

I get frustrated so easily and my hand won’t work that way,I don’t understand why those other kids won’t let me come over and play.

Please don’t think of me any differently or love of me any less,I’m just like other kids and trying to do my best.

I am very special in my own unique way,and every moment with me you’ll never have a dull day.

I am Mom:

I love you more than the sun moon and stars,my little miracle you’ve come oh so very far.

Each day that you grow and learn and love I thank god for everything in the heavens above.

You are sweet, smart, and funny, all rolled into one and you have so much love to give, you‘re my whole world my very special son.

© Kelly Graham

I just want to wish my very best friend Sharon a happy birthday!!! Thanks for spending the weekend with me =) I had so much fun!! I hope you have had a good day. Glad you are finally 26 with me! Feel any older?? haha

Happy Birthday Jacob!!!!

Today is Jacob's 6th birthday!! I cant believe that I have a 6 yr old. So because hes 6, here are 6 things that I love about Jacob!!

1. He is so sweet!! He is full of hugs and kisses right now. He loves to give anyone a hug and a kiss. He tells me he loves me about 20 times a day...and I love it!!!

2. He works SO HARD!!! When it comes to therapy's he never gives up he is always working hard and accomplishing all of his goals.

3. He is the life of the party. He is always wanting to have fun. He loves to make people laugh and usually does it just acting like Jacob because hes such a fun kid.

4. His love for music is just awesome! He can pick up any song the first few time he hears it and sing it again. He loves to play the piano, guitar, and drums. If hes not talking, hes usually singing.

5. Hes one after my own heart...he LOVES to talk!! Yes anyone can tell he is MY son since we both talk so much. But I love it because it reminds me of me.

6. He loves his cousins more than anything. He makes a reference to at least 2 of his cousins a day. When we asked him who he wanted to come to his bday party all he named was his cousins. Too bad they all are not here =( But when his cousins come into town...that's all he can talk about to anyone. And he has the same love for the oldest cousin right down to the youngest.

Here is a picture of birthdays from the past.

This is a picture of his bday last year. I decided to make a cake last year. I was going to make a big one and frost it and make it cute. Well it didn't turn out good AT ALL!! I think it fell apart and I was so upset. So we bought a cake instead haha. This year im going to attempt to make another cake. Hopefully it goes better this time.

Here is a picture of his first birthday. We were living in Texas at the time but came back to Az to visit for his bday. He was not sure of the cake and we had to put his hands in the cake for him to see if he would do anything. And nope...he just cried.

Last night we went to Peter Piper Pizza with Grandma and Grandad. They are leaving today to go up to Lakeside so they wanted to have dinner with him before they left. So this is when we did presents and stuff since he was getting them from Grandma and Grandad we just did them all. He got another MP3 player and I think that is his fav gift by far! He had one before and it got stolen out of our car and hes been using our Ipods and now he has one of his own. He also got a gift card to target, a game boy, some Lego's, a movie, and a game.

Happy Birthday buddy, I hope you have a good day today!!!

***Ok, I am so mad. I just had a big post all typed up, I hit the keyboard and it deleted!!! So hopefully I can remember what I posted***

We just got the best news! A few months ago they took away the scholarships for the kids with special needs to go to private schools. That was a BAD thing for a lot of parents...like us! A few days ago they found an account that had 5 million dollars in it. And so they said they could use that money to fund the scholarships. Well just tonight we got an email saying that it did indeed pass!! And that they will be having a press conference tomorrow to reinstate the scholarships. I am beyond excited and hope this is not false hope. We need this to happen...badly. We just got word that we are using all of our hab hours and respite hours and we dont even have enough to use for our date nights anymore. So we will finally get all our hours back!! Which means Jacob will finally be able to get ABA therapy again. For those not in the therapy lingo...ABA is the behavior therapy Jacob gets daily. He has not been able to get it for a month and a half and is suffering BADLY! All of his therapists are having behavior problems and we are experiencing A LOT at home. His aggression is coming back in full force and its not fun. Just tonight, he put a blanket over Tyler twice and sat on him with the blanket over him. I talked with his Occupational Therapist and we decided that we are going to put him back on the Gluten Free diet. We had him on it before and didnt see very many results. And we think its because he was on Meds as well. But since he is no longer on any meds we figured we are going to try again and see how that works. Grocery stores are carrying Gf things and so it seems a little easier to find things. So, those people who are GF...please email me some good recipes that my whole family would enjoy. I dont like cooking 2 meals but I will if I have to.

In other Jacob news...his birthday is next week. I cant believe that I will have a 6 yr old next week. He is getting SO BIG!! And really...he is so tall I am scared to see what he will be when he is done growing. He is learning so much every day and im so happy to be his mom!! I have been homeschooling him since the scholarships got taken away...and its so fun to see everything he learns. He is SO SMART and amazes me every day. Right now he is obsessed with street names. He can tell you exactly what street we are on and when we are at a light he can usually tell me the cross roads we are on.

5th Disease has taken over our house!!! If you dont know what it is, here is a little rundown for ya.

Its a parvo disease. Its in the same family as chicken pox...so if you get it once, you wont ever get it again. Sometimes you have sick reactions sometimes you get nothing. And then you get a rash that is on your cheeks, arms, chest, and legs. It is contagous but only before you get the rash. And most times there are no symptoms so you dont know that you have it until you get the rash. The only way you can get it is if you share your germs. Because Jacob puts almost everything in his mouth, im sure he picked it up somewhere that another kid with it had put his mouth on. And then Tyler also has it. So im sure it was passed the same way. Tyler also puts everything in his mouth. So Jacob had something in his mouth and then I didnt clean it off...because I didnt know he had this. So tyler got it also. Its not a big deal, it doesnt bother them at all. The one big worry is that anyone who is pregnant to catch it because if you are 4 months and under in pregnancy you could lose the baby. But for someone older to get it...Jacob would have to of sneezed on the person and then that person put her hand or whatever in her mouth...yeah, doesnt sound good haha. Hopefully we will get rid of them soon. Doc said it should take 4-6 weeks!!!

Ok I got tagged on Carlies blog so here I go!

1. What were your nicknames in high school? Didnt really have a nickname except Brit.

2. Did you do any extra curricular activities in high school? nope...nothing.

3.What did you do with your free time? Hung out with friends and worked.

4. Coolest /Funnest thing you did as a teenager? I think one of the funnest things I did when I was a teenager was either go to EFY or go to Snowflake with Sharon quite a few times to visit our friends there...haha.

5. Did you have a boyfriend in high school? Not until the end of my Senior year I started dating Tom

6. Songs that come to mind? haha this might be a little emberassing. Sublime songs...lots of dave matthews band...LL Cool J...haha

7. What did you think you would be when you grew up? something to do with sign language.

8. How did you picture yourself? I was a little shy...I only really talked to my friends although I talked a lot (and still do) I thought I was pretty fun to be around. Always trying to have fun

9. Fun/silly Memories? Going to Bahama Bucks every weekend just about because Sharon worked there and we thought it was so much fun to go and hang out there. We got to try all the flavers we wanted...and we thought her manager was cute...haha

10. Most embarrassing moment? Asking a guy I really liked to a dance and having his mom call and say he couldnt go.
I tag anyone who wants to do it. Its fun!!

So, this weekend we went up north to Lakeside for my birthday. It was a lot of fun and we did a lot of fun stuff. The best part was...I got a camera for my birthday. YAY thanks so much mom and dad!!! So this post will finally have pictures!!!

For some reason the pictures did something funny. Just click on the pictures to see them.

So we got there Friday night and just relaxed, ate dinner, and then went to bed. We had to be up really early Saturday morning (my birthday) because we were going to the parade in Snowflake for Pioneer Day. So we are out of the house by 750 am and as we are driving to Snowflake for the parade. Here are a few pictures from that fun time!!





My nieces Taylor and Madyson are such big helpers. They helped so good with Tyler and making sure he didn't run to where the parade was. EVERYONE was throwing candy and so Tyler liked to run and get the candy even when the floats were coming.





So then we were leaving from the parade and we decided to stop at Trappers for some pie. If you have been to snowflake then im sure you have been to trappers. They have THE BEST PIE!!! And I was so excited to get some for my birthday. So when we were in Show Low we were stopped at a stop light looking at the helicopters that were just landing at the hospital. All of a sudden we get hit from the back by another car!!! I was so shocked and I wasnt really sure what just happened. I kept saying to myself...did we just get hit? But we pulled over and sure enough we got hit! Everyone was fine but most of us have stiff backs/necks and my arm and head hurt really bad. What a great birthday present eh? Here is some of the damage that happened.



So then we finally got home after waiting for the police for about an hour and getting out of there like 2 hours later. When we got home I had the kids helping me make some home made ice cream. When it was done in the machine I brought some up for the kids. They attacked it like crazy and thought it was so funny.



And then we had dinner and pie...and it was over all a pretty good birthday.

Thanks for the emails and everything from people wishing me a happy birthday =) I appreciate it!!

So my birthday is coming up on Saturday. And Tom asked me a few weeks ago, what I wanted for my birthday. I thought about it and told him that I wanted roller blades again. I haven't had a pair since I was a kid and I haven't even gone roller blading since I was a kid but it sounded like fun and really good exercise. So on Sunday we were at my parents house and I was looking through the ads that come out on Sundays and I found some roller blades for really cheap. Tom also wanted some golf clubs at the same place so we decided to go yesterday. We got my roller blades...YAY!! I was so excited to try them out. So while it was 110 yesterday I just decided I would go around the block. I first put them on...and I fell!! I was so embarrassed. I couldn't believe that I forgot how to roller blade. Then I realized that they were on too loose and that's why I fell. So I tightened them up and off I went. My legs were hurting so bad just going down my street. I could tell I haven't used those muscles in a long time! So then right before bed we took the boys to the park that's across the street from our house and while Tom went with them, I went around the block. It was a whole lot better the 2nd time around and I wasnt as sore. I am excited to be able to roller blade every day now!! Now if the heat would just go away so I can roller blade and not feel like im going to die...haha.

This has been on a few blogs so I thought I would do it as well.

Here are the directions:1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you.It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.If you don't want to play on your blog, or if you don't have a blog, I'll leave my memory of you in my comments.

What a fun weekend we had!!! We decided to go up north to Lakeside for a few days this past weekend for the 4th. We went up Thursday and stayed till Sunday. The car ride there was ok. It started raining on us when we went through the canyon and that was really scary. Then a rock came and hit our windshield and put a crack in it. The weekend went pretty good. We just hung around the house and relaxed. For the 4th we had a BBQ at my aunt and uncles house with their 2 daughters and their family. So that was a lot of fun to get to talk to them and have our kids play. Fireworks were pretty late so we just stayed in and watched them on TV. Jacob was so excited to watch fireworks and he loved them on TV just as much as he would of liked them live. Maybe next year. Then it started raining on Saturday and pretty much rained the whole day, and even hailed on us. It got down into the 60's and it was so nice!!! Then we went to church on sunday and headed out.

Now here is where the "fun" came in...haha. Those of you who are familiar with Arizona and up north will know what im talking about. If you dont, im sorry...haha. So we started off at about 12:10. We decided to go through Payson instead of going through the canyon just because its fun to go that way sometimes. Right as we started out, it started to rain again. Before we got to Heber, we saw one accident and it was backed up a little bit. By the time we got past that it was raining pretty hard. So between Show Low and Payson, it took us 3 hours. It was raining so hard that we could not see the car in front of us. By the time we got to Payson, the rain storm was just about to hit so it was fine. We decided to stop and have a bathroom break since we were all dying and needed to get out and stretch. But there was a HUGE line for the bathroom and the mens restroom was flooded and there was nastyness all over the floor. Tyler wouldnt walk and Jacob of course was making all kinds of noises because it stunk so bad. There was only one stall in each bathroom and so it took forever to get to the bathroom. Finally we were on our way home and we didnt get home until 530!!! It was one of the longest trips...but the weekend we had it was well worth it.

This past week Tom was away at scout camp. He had to take my car and so I was left carless. So the boys and I decided to go up to the mountains, to Lakeside, with my Mom for a few days. It was a lot of fun...and the weather was SO MUCH better!! I wish we could just move there. While we were there my mom had a birthday. We actually left on her birthday, but we went and had ice cream at Dairy Queen for her birthday...haha.

Not much has been going on with us. We are still struggling on what to do with Jacob and where he needs to go to school at. I just told them at his therapy center that we would not be able to go on with the school for this next year. Only because we dont have the 1ooo dollars a month it cost to keep him in there. Other than that, Jacob is doing a lot better now with his behaviors and such. He is talking a whole lot better and people can actually now understand most of what he says. He still stutters a lot and when he talks fast you cant tell what he says, but over all its coming a long good.

I have a movie for everyone to see. Yes, its a movie about Autism, but I think this is a movie that everyone should see regardless. Its called Autism: The Musical. When I first heard about the movie I thought...wow that's horrible they made a musical about autism. I thought that people were making fun of the movie and I wanted no part in it. And then I heard more about the movie. And I was totally wrong!! Its about 5 kids who are the main part of the movie. They start out in this social acting group and they end up doing a musical in a span of about 6 months. And it goes through a lot of challenges...it shows a very good range of kids with autism and I think its a great movie. I was in tears almost the entire movie because I just fell in love with these kids. Especially this girl named Lexi. She is 13 and so fun!! She had me cracking up every time I saw her on the movie and boy can she sing! She sings a lot in the musical and she is a very good singer. And because I want everyone to watch this movie...I am going to let you into my "secret" website to watch it...haha. This website is awesome! Its where you can watch movies for free. And its not illegal because they go from different websites and you don't have to download anything. Most of the movies are on hosting websites like youtube. So here is the website to watch Autism: The musical and if you watch it, let me know how you liked it. Oh, and I have to warn you...because its like a public website there are some ads that are not very good to see. But you can just not scroll down to the end of the page and you wont have to look at them. I usually just make sure the bottom of the movie screen is on the bottom of my computer screen and I dont ever see them.

Today is my Dads birthday!! Happy Birthday Dad, we love you!! You are the best dad anyone can ask for. You are so loving and caring to my boys and they love you for that. You show genuine love to Jacob and he knows that and loves you right back. Thank you for being a great example to all of us. The first thing Jacob said when he woke up this morning was...its grandads birthday yay!


So being sick is no fun! Especially when you are sick over Fathers Day and do nothing for your husband because you are too sick!! Well that's what happened to me! Saturday was a big birthday party for my mom. And we were so busy all day and I just started feeling really sick through out the whole day. By the end of the night I was really sick and just wanted to lay down. Sunday (Fathers Day) came and I couldn't move I was so sick. And I stayed in bed and did not say one word to anyone. I did wish Tom a Happy Fathers Day right when he woke up and I did let him sleep for a hour or 2 longer. Then Monday we ended up going to Urgent Care where the doc really left me not knowing what to think. He took a look at my throat and said "Hmm something is definitely going on down there." So I asked him what he thought it could be. And he told me that strep is going around, and so is a virus, and an upper respiratory infection type thing. He didn't know what I had so he just gave me a strong med that will kill all of it but the virus. He told me that if I had the virus then I would start coughing soon...and what do you know, Ive been coughing. So I think that's all I had. But he did tell me that the sore throat will last for 2 weeks. I really hope not because I am tired of this sore throat already.

So Happy Late Fathers Day Tom and Dad!! Sorry I missed Fathers Day but I was still thinking of you guys!

Im sure I can think of something to put other than birthday greetings. Nothing has really be going on with us lately. We went up to Lakeside for a few days and that was a lot of fun. My neices and nephew have been here for the past week while my sister was at girls camp and we have had a lot of fun with them. Jacob and Joshua have really had fun playing together.

The only real news is that the state took away the scholarships for everyone...not just us. Its been really hard on a lot of people. I never posted, but we did end up getting accepted and so we were excited to be able to go to the school we want. But since they took it away we are now going to home school because that is our only choice. But if for whatever reason they bring the scholarships back we will put him back in the private school.

Also, Jacobs therapy center did a little commercial about their center and had it playing on cox tv and Jacob is in it twice!! Here is the link to it http://www.laurensinstitute.org/news/index.html its really cool to see him in it and I was so proud haha.

Ok, here is another birthday greeting...its LANIS BIRTHDAY!!! Happy birthday Lani! She is turning 7!! We are sad we cant celebrate with you hopefully we will see you guys soon.

Happy Birthday to Jonas!!!

Its my cute little nephew's birthday today! Jonas is 3!!! Happy Birthday little man we love you!

Tomorrow and Wednesday (June 3rd and 4th) KTAR is doing a station wide Autism fundraiser for SARRC (Southwest Autism Research & Resource Center). I think its really awesome and I cant wait to hear what all they have to say and what they do. I really hope they focus on ALL parts of the Autism Spectrum so that more parents are aware of the other kids (like mine) that have autism but don't fit the autism stereo type. So if you want to know more about autism, have someone in your life that has autism, or you want to donate to help this great organization...please listen!! I know my radio will be on for the next 2 days!

Here is the link to it http://www.ktar.com/actionforautism.php

Well here is another Birthday post. Most of my familys birthdays are in the summer so there is gonna be lots of these...haha.

Today is my oldest nephew Noah's Birthday!!! This is Shelly's oldest. He is turning 9!


Happy Birthday Noah! We wish we were there celebrating it with you guys. We sure miss you.

Love you!!

Britney, Tom, Jake, and Tyler

I just wanted to write a quick post and say Happy Birthday to my brother MIKE!!!

Sorry mike, this is the only picture I have of you...haha.

Mike has been such a great big brother, and I really appriciate that. He has also been an even better unkie! My boys love him so much, expecially Tyler. Tyler has this special bond with Mike and its so sweet to see how much love he has for his unkie. And it is also great that we just live around the corner from them, so we can see them whenever we want. Every morning we would see unkie going to work when we would take Tom to work...and my boys would always yell "bye unkie have a good day" even when we wouldnt see him, they would still yell that. I know he could not hear them but it was still funny to hear them say that.

So Happy Birthday Mike! Hope you have a great day today.

We had such a fun weekend!!! We got our tax check thing and so we decided to head up to Flagstaff for the weekend. We haven't been on a real family vacation in 2 years and so we figured this would be the perfect time. Ive been to Flagstaff a few times but ive never really been there. Just passing through type thing. So it was fun to actually go and be able to see the sites and explore. Friday night when we got there, we kinda got lost. We couldn't find our hotel and it seemed like the whole thing was getting off to a bad start. We finally found it and we were actually pretty surprised at how nice it was. So we decided to go to dinner since it was already around 6 and the kids were cranky and hungry....so were mommy and daddy..haha. We wanted to eat at different places every meal that they don't have here in the valley. And so we both wanted to eat at Sizzler. Since they used to have one here and they shut it down....I've been wanting to go back there and eat. BIG MISTAKE!!!! The food was HORRIBLE! We both got steaks and they were so dry and chewy...not worth the money at all. The best part of dinner was the baked potato and the strawberry lemonades...haha.

Then Saturday we woke up pretty early....hung around the hotel room a bit, and then went to breakfast. They had a really good cont breakfast at this hotel. That saved us some good money im sure haha. We went and ate breakfast and then off we went to go see some stuff. It was about 9am when we headed off and realized it was too early to do anything because things were closed. We went and drove around NAU and looked at the campus and then we found our way to the visitors center to see what was to do around there. We found a little brochure for this mansion thing and it seemed like fun. When we got there I remembered that at state parks you can do this Jr. Ranger thing and when you visit state parks you get a little button pin for the kids and its a fun thing to do. So I had Jacob do it and he was so excited to get his button. We went to take the tour and the mansion was amazing!! It was hard with the kids because you cant touch ANYTHING and of course tyler wanted to touch everything. Jacob was actually very good. He was very calm and stayed by our sides and did not touch a thing. The tour was an hour long so I was very proud of him. When we got done with that we went to best buy for a bit and around the little mall there. When we went to eat lunch there was another couple there from the valley. They told us that we should take the kids up to snowbowl because there are still patches of snow. We thought that was a good idea so we went up there. We had to do a little hiking to get there but once we did it was a lot of fun. Jacob loved the snow. He had so much fun throwing snow balls at us and at the trees. Tyler was not too sure about the snow but he had fun trying to throw snow balls as well. It was just too cold for him. That was about all we did...haha. I know not too exciting but it was a nice relaxing weekend. By Saturday night the kids were asking to go back to our old home. They were ready to come home. Tom and I wanted to live there forever. The weather was SO NICE!!! There was one thing that I could not take if we lived there. And if you have been to flagstaff you will know what im talking about....THE TRAINS!!!! There is a train going past about ever 5 min and no matter where you are, you can see the train and hear it. We went to where the train tracks are at the visitors center and I decided to take the kids to see the train as it passed through. When the train came, they both got freaked out. The looks on their faces were priceless. If you haven't been to flagstaff, I recommend it. It is a little college town but its a lot of fun because of it.

Something happened yesterday morning that I knew was coming, I just prayed and hoped it would never happen. The boys and I went to walmart to get a few things for the week. Normally Jacob is always in the cart but because we had so many things he had to walk. So as we were walking out the door, Tyler stopped the door lady because he wanted a sticker we didn't get when we walked in. So as we are talking to her I look out the door and Jacob just darts across the street like he does every time but this time there was a car and Jacob got hit by a car. The lady that was driving was only going like 10 miles an hour so she was able to stop pretty fast and it only hit the side of him, but he fell to the ground and was crying and really upset, even tho he had no idea what just happened. He was so unaware that there was a car there and that it was going to hit him if he ran in front of it. I kept asking him where it hurt and he said nothing hurt but I took him to the ER anyways just to get checked over. The doc checked him over and did a scan of his head to look for a concussion or something and said that he had a small concussion. He started throwing up yesterday and threw up about 3 times but has been acting perfectly fine. I think it hurt ME more than it did him. To watch my son get hit by a car has to be one of the worst sights I could see. I cried and cried until we saw the doctor and he said he was fine. Then I felt better and I was fine after that. Until the boys were in bed...and it was quiet...and I could just think about what REALLY happened. And then this horrible depression came on and I kept thinking about how it could of been worse and that just tore me up. I am so grateful that it was something so minor. And the fact that bad things just keep happening to us and I don't know when its all going to stop.

I do want to thank everyone who called and came over yesterday. Its nice to know that there are people out there who care about us. Also, Sharon, thank you for coming with us to Chuck E Cheese. We had so much fun and it was so nice to get my mind off of things for a little bit.

Happy May everyone =) haha

So yesterday was a pretty fun day. Jacob does not have therapy on Wednesdays so I usually dread the day because im usually stressed out. But it was actually a good day yesterday. We started off the day by going to a new therapy appointment. We got Jacob a new physical therapist. She was really nice and we really like her. When she came out she asked me if Jacob had ever had braces on his legs or orthopedics in his shoes. I told her no, no one has ever said he needed them. She told me that his feet are very flat and he walks on the side of his feet on his bones and if he keeps doing that then his feet are going to grow like that and when hes older hes going to have some major problems. So we have to take him to the doc and see what he wants to do. I just picture my son like forrest gump with the braces on his legs...haha.

Then we came home and did some school work and then Jacob's respite guy came and got him and they left for a few hours. When Jacob got home we all took a much needed nap. Although it made me miss something very important for church. We woke up and went and rented a movie from those movie machine things that are only 1.00. Then we had to go to the grocery store so we went to walmart, we came home, I put the movie on for the boys and made them dinner and then by 7pm they were out! Today is going to be a different day, im sure.

Today has been a pretty hard day for me. First of all, this morning, I went to take tom to work. As I was walking out the door he said...did you mess up the car last night? I said no, why? He said...because our car got broken into. I didnt really think anything of it until we started finding things that they took. Thank goodness our car is still here...and everything they took can be replaced. We are blessed that neither of our wallets were in the car and everything was in the house with us. The one thing that hit me the hardest was they took Jacob's backpack. With all his therapy stuff in it including his "Ipod" he calls it...its just a little mp3 player but that was his one and only therapy tool that worked wonders for him!!! And he was very upset that he could not have it and told everyone at therapy today that the bad guys took his ipod. So I guess the next few days is going to be spent cleaning out the garage so that we can park our van in it. I dont want to take any more chances. When we first got married, our car got broken into and a week later, someone stole our car. I actually was 9 months pregnant and the stress made me go into labor with Jacob...haha. But now im very paranoid that someone is going to steal our car. We all thought the doors were locked because we lock the doors every night but we must of just slipped and not locked one door because you have to lock it by hand. I am just greatful that nothing was taken such as our ID's, credit cards, or bank cards!!

So some of you know about the not so fun experience we had with Jacob in school this past year. We ended up taking him out after being in there a month and putting him in a therapy school. Well hes been going to their school and its been awesome!! Come August they are opening it up to a private school. The cost to keep him in is 27,000!!! Can you believe that? I don't see why its so expensive...like anyone is going to be able to pay that. But getting into this school is our only hope for him to have a good education. I tried to get him into the Autism classroom but they said no because they have too many kids but not enough room so hes either going to have to go to a normal class (and if you know Jacob that is so not happening) or the IK class again where he was before. the IK is Integrated Kindergarten. And that's where half the kids have IEP's and have are normal. IEP's are kind of like "rules" that the school has to follow for your child's needs. That's fine but Jacob needs more than just the IK class. He was very aggressive and the teachers couldn't handle him and so would just push him aside. He would come home saying that he was a bad kid and he was crazy...and its from those teachers telling him stuff. He still brings up that hes crazy all the time. We have now made it a joke thing to be crazy because I dont want him thinking that its bad. So, getting to the point...haha. So our only hope to get into this school was to get a scholarship from the state. And they pay some or all of the tuition to the school of choice. So I sent in all my papers...and got a call a few days ago. She told me that Jacob got denied =( I am so sad...I dont know what we are going to do now. I am going to other school districts to see what our options are there. I am visiting Mesa and seeing how their autism classes are and hopefully they wont push Jacob out like Gilbert has. If I have to drive him to school every day, I will for the right school!

With that being said...we are still having major behavior problems with Jacob. The people at his therapy center told me that his behaviors have gotten a whole lot worse in the past week. It seems like every week they are telling me that...haha. I met with them again trying to figure out a positive reinforcement program to come up with that will be used at therapy, at home, out in public, at grandmas house, at a babysitters house...everywhere. And let me tell you, its VERY hard trying to ignore the bad behavior but praise the good behavior. I didnt think it was going to be as hard as it is. Of course your initial reaction to a child doing something bad is to tell them no..but with Jacob we cant do that. Everything works on "5 stars" system. So like if we are at a restaurant or something we would say ok Jacob you need to get 5 stars and if you do you can pick out whatever you want for dessert. So every time he is good you tell him...good job you just got another star until he has his 5 stars. But when he does bad behavior you ignore it completely but the second hes doing good behavior that's when you praise him so he knows that its that kind of behavior that hes supposed to have. It has worked A LOT when ive enforced it...but its so hard to do it at all times. Especially when hes throwing toys or hitting Tyler or something destructive! His eye contact is getting worse also. It makes me wonder if there is something going on that is doing this to him. I wish I was rich I could take him to all these doctors that specialize in these kinds of things that don't take insurance.

Oh, this past weekend we went to a picnic put on by Jacobs therapy center. It was at the Power Ranch Club house thing and it was a lot of fun. But when Jacob would see his therapists he was hiding and did not want to look at any of them or talk to any of them. Then afterwards he told me he was scared. It was really weird. But we had a great time and the boys had a fun time also playing with their friends and playing on the playground.


GO suns!!! Its playoff time! Hopefully they can win it all!!!

And GO Dbacks!!! They are doing awesome this year so far!!!

I can't believe I left out some very important info from that last post. First of all...I now have NO MORE KIDS IN DIAPERS!!! Thats right...Tyler is now finally potty trained!!! We have gone a whole week with no diapers and no accidents even nap time and bedtime!!! It is soo nice to not have to worry about changing diapers anymore.

Also, I have started to homeschool both kiddoes. Tyler gets it 3 days a week and Jacob gets it every day. I am really enjoying it and they are actually learning and having a lot of fun. It is so nice to see that they learned something that I taught them. I think its awesome and I love how I feel when im teaching them. Its great that we get to incorporate our LDS teachings into our school work.

Now...there has been this bill going around here called Stevens Law. And what it is, is it makes it so that behavior therapy (ABA) and Hab therapies would be covered by private insurances. Also stuff like Physical, Occupational, Speech, and Music therapys would all be covered. Well on Friday the Gov. passed it!! YAY we are all so excited! So what does this mean for us? Well come Jacob's 6th bday we may be losing all of our services through the state because he isnt as severe as most kids are in Autism that he may not meet the requirements they have for 6 year olds. But he is only this good because of the therapies he has been in. So if he doesnt get them he Will go back to his old self. I saw it this past week. He didnt have therapy almost all week and by Wednesday you could really tell he was gone without therapy. He had NO eye contact, he was just really out of it and not in tune with the world. And im scared that if he loses his services he will go back to what he was before therapy. Well because this law passed it means that we will still be able to get all therapy's even after hes 6 through our private insurance. I am so excited and I can not wait until I get that notice saying we will be able to get it on our insurance now!!

I hope everyone had a good Easter. I know we definitely did! This week was my week to teach the lesson in our sunbeam class so it was really fun trying to figure out a good way to teach our little kids about why we celebrate Easter. It was a nice review on the life of Jesus and it was really good for me. I started out the lesson having the lady I teach with take the kids in the classroom for prayer and stuff and I went outside and hid some eggs out there. So when I got back in the room they all asked me where I went. I told them I had to go get something from my car. And when I was outside I saw the Easter Bunny and he had eggs for the kids and he wanted me to tell the kids to go out and find what he left for them. So they got all excited and wanted to go out and find the eggs. So we did that then came in and I explained that it was fun finding eggs and getting jelly beans and having the Easter bunny but that isn't the real meaning of Easter...then I went into the lesson. It actually went really well and it lasted until parents came! Its amazing...that never happens. Usually I have 20 min left haha.

Friday night Sharon and I got together and had so much fun...like always!! We played a few games...which I won all of...but one...hahaha. Sorry Sharon!! I'm just the game master...I cant control that =) and we made THE BEST cookie thing...EVER!! It was so good and we couldn't stop eating it! But it was sooo rich and made us sooo sick. But very yummy. It was a peanut butter cookie that we put in a cake pan and then covered it with chocolate chips, butterscotch chips, and marshmallows. Then put it in the oven for about 5 min and let it all melt and the marshmallows got a little brown...and it was perfect!!

I know I haven't posted a blog in a while. Nothing real fun going on to blog about...haha. I hate always writing about negative things but that just seems to keep popping up in my life!

First I want to start off with a very positive thing. Today is my niece Madysons birthday!! Happy birthday Maddy we love you very much. You are such a great little girl and you are growing up to be such a great girl! My kids just adore you and love their cousin maddy. Jacob gets so excited every time he sees you and Tyler loves to hug you and talks about maddy all the time. We are so happy to have you here all the time with your mommy and daddy. But we sure do miss you at church and on the weekends!

Here is a picture I have of maddy. Not a very recent one, sorry maddy haha.







Ok with that being said now I can talk about the other stuff.

In Jacob's therapy they have been changing his schedule A LOT. And well, if you know or have a kid with autism, you know that schedule changes are not good. They don't adapt easy to a schedule change and its just not a good thing. So hes been having a lot of behavior problems, at therapy, and at home. So last Wednesday his teacher tells me that she wants me to meet with her and then one of the head guys at this therapy center. I am scared to death because I think hes gonna get kicked out of school or therapy or something. She told me that we have to discuss his behavior so I knew he was gone. The next day I go for our meeting and they started out by talking about positive things about him, which was GREAT. It made me feel like they weren't there just to tell me all the bad things about my son. So then we go to start talking about his behaviors. I guess at therapy (and at home) hes been running into walls, kids, adults, throwing toys, not having control of his body and hitting himself on things. So after hearing this I had mentioned to them that maybe it could be sensory problems? They totally agreed with me and said that it definitely could be that. Now I have written before about Jacob and his sensory issues that we were getting him diagnosed with a sensory disorder. It never got done so we never addressed that. But since all of these new behaviors are going on we definitely are going to address it. He just got a new occupational therapist and so when they get to know each other more we are going to have her make him up a sensory diet. Its not a diet that you eat but its activities that you do to give them more sensory since he is seeking it the most. Examples would be, deep pressure, playing wtih play doh, jumping, swinging, spinning around, playing with shaving cream or sand, brushing...and more. So we will see what they come up with for him. We are going to have to do it every 45 min so that's going to be a challenge but I am pretty sure its going to work. On Sunday, during Sac Meeting, Jacob was sitting on my lap and I started giving him pressure and next thing I know he was fast asleep...haha. It calmed him down so much that it put him right to sleep.

Oh, in other Jacob news...remember how I posted about him hurting his toe? Well a few days ago they called and told us that his toe was broken...haha. that's nice, a week and a half later they finally get around to calling us to tell us that its broken. He is walking fine on it and it doesn't hurt at all. A few days after he did it, he was walking on it with no problem. That's just how much he doesn't feel a lot of pain. isn't that crazy?

I know I havent blogged in a while...so here is a big update of whats been going on in our lives!!

Valentines day was a good one. My husband is not much of a gift giver and never has been. But this year I got a pretty good gift and he suprised me big time!! He got me an attachment to my bosch mixer. Its the food processer. And its amazing!! It does so much and I dont even know what to do first. I tried making salsa and that really did not turn out very well. If anyone has any salsa recipes please share!!! We love salsa and I would love to have some that I made and not having to go buy it.

Then, Friday night, I heard Jacob screaming in pain. I run to the front room and his foot is all bloody and he has blood all over the floor and the couch and hes screaming in pain. Jacob does not feel a lot of pain so when he is screaming I know it hurts him. So we rush him to the bathtub to put him in and wash off his foot (Thanks to my mom, I know not to put a cut in warm water anymore...haha) and it would not stop bleeding and it actually started to bleed harder. I gave him his meds to calm him down because he was freaking out so bad he was shaking and we couldnt get him to calm down. And then finally we get him to calm down and put a bandaid on his toe and wrapped up and he goes to sleep. Around 11pm he started to wake up and started screaming in pain again. I took off his blanket and it was covered in blood. his toe was still bleeding and was bleeding everywhere! So we took off the bandaid and the wrap and it was really swollen and just looked bad. So we decided to take him to the ER and make sure it was not broken. Well Tom took him and nothing was wrong. Sunday morning he woke up and couldnt even walk on it because it hurt so bad. Then Monday it was perfectly fine...gotta love kids!!!

My cousin Katie had this on her blog so I decided to take this test. I love typing and I know im fast at it but didnt think I was this fast. Can anyone beat me?? I am sure there are lots of people who type faster than me so I want to see it!

84 words

Speed test

I am sure everyone has heard by now, but if not, Pres. Hinckley died tonight at 7 pm. Here is an article from deseret news in Utah. Its so sad to know that he is gone but then again im so happy that hes going to be able to reunite with his wife!! What a great reunion that must of been for them. It tears me up knowing that he finally got to see his wife again, rather than him passing. He was a great prophet and will not be forgotten!! He has been the only prophet I really remember and there is a lot that I will remember of him. I was telling Tom...just when we finally get the little kids to know who the prophet is, we have to start telling them something different...haha. Poor kids!! I work with the sunbeams so its gonna be interesting trying to explain to them that the prophet had passed away.

RIP Pres. Hinckley!!! We love you

I just copied this picture off of an email that I got from LDSLiving and I just LOVE it. I put it at the bottom of my blog also.

Ok so my cousin Katie tagged me on her blog. Sooo here I go!



Here are the rules:-Link to the person who tagged you.-Leave a comment on their blog so that their readers can visit yours.-Post the rules on your blog.-Share the seven (7) most famous or infamous people you have met. Or go with the original 7 weird things about yourself.-Tag 7 random people at the end of your post.-Include links to their blogs.-Let each person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

Well ive not met 7 famous people...so I guess im going to have to do the 7 things about myself.

1. Growing up I always knew I would have a special needs sort of child. In elementary I was always helping out with the special needs class, in Jr High I was in a class that helped out the special needs there and ive always just had a love for these kids. I am so glad that my child is not severe as those that I have seen in school and through out my life. Its hard enough dealing with him as he is!

2. Right at this moment, my eyes hurt so bad. I just want to go back to sleep...haha.

3. I am so fed up with Public schools here and them not wanting to listen to me and ask me my opinion on everything. They think they know what is the best for my child when they really dont.

4. Right now, Jacob is mopping the whole kitchen floor...without being asked. I love that he loves to clean! And he does a good job too. I think hes OCD about things being clean and im far from that.

5. Ok this one might be a little emberassing...haha but I still sleep with a blanket my grandma made me a LONG time ago. It was the last blanket she made before she died and its very special to me. So I still sleep with it and I cant go to sleep unless I have it.

6. My house needs to be decorated so bad but I have no sence of decoration that I have no idea what to do or where to start (anyone wanna help me??? )

7. I dislike doing laundry. I dont like folding it, hanging it up, putting it in the washer/dryer..nothing about it. Right now I have 2 hampers full of laundry just sitting there and I keep putting it off as long as I can.

When I tag, I like it to have a theme...hehe. So the people I tag are all people I went to school with.

Becky
Carlie
Katie P
Kyla
Megan
Sharon
Ranee (Ok, so I didnt go to school with you but thats ok hehe)

Tonight I had one of the best nights in a long time. My aunt and uncle just celebrated their 50th wedding anniversary!! And my cousins threw them a little party. Well Tom is gone tonight with the scouts camping so I was just gonna hang out with the boys since ive had a bad week I just wanted to stay at home. Well my mom called me and said...suprise Shelly and Avery are here! So im getting a babysitter for your boys and avery and you guys are gonna go to the party. So I went and im SO GLAD I did!! We had such a fun time and I got to hang out with my cousins that I never get to see. They had a dinner, a little talking about how WONDERFUL my aunt and uncle are, and then we played games. There were 5 tables and each table had different games. I played a game that i've never played before and it was so much fun! I cant remember the name now haha. Im going to go to the store and try to find it, and then ill post the name of it. It was a lot of fun to get out of the house without the boys and get some much needed time away.

I am so excited. Tonight is....


AMERICAN IDOL!!!! I love AI and I have been waiting for it to come back on! I especially love watching these next few weeks when they do the auditions. I like to predict who will be in the top 12 and who will win it. Tom actually predicted that Jordyn would win and he stuck with it the entire year.

Sorry I haven't updated lately. I got really sick last week. I had strep throat and a sinus infection all at the same time. It was not fun one bit! But hopefully im all better now.

Nothing has really been going on here. I am not sure if I wrote about this or not, but we got Jacob on a new medicine. It was working SO GOOD!! Everyone that works with him always tells me how great hes doing. He always got good reports home and he was so calm and just good. Well we went last week to get it refilled and come to find out, no insurance companies cover this drug!! I am so mad and frustrated. We finally found one that works really well and of course, we cant get it anymore. So we are back to working with him on trying to control his hyperactivity and his focus. I guess they have been doing some sensory work with him at therapy and its working so we may go back to doing that again here.

Oh...I just remembered something I forgot to write about. A month or so ago, we took Jacob to a psych because of his aggression. His dev. ped wanted to put him in a mental institution because one day, when he got mad at me, he told me he wanted to kill me. I told that to his DP and she told me that saying it just once is reason enough to put him in there. I told her NO I was not going to let her do that. So we agreed to go see a psych and see if there is anything they suggest. So we go, and of course Jacob has to be the best hes ever been. He looks at her when he talks and he answers all of her questions and then goes and plays with a puzzle. She told me that she did not think he had autism because he looked at her when he was talking to her and that he never regressed on anything when he was younger. She told me that ALL autistic kids regress on speech or something. I laughed about that because no 2 autistic kids are the same. There is no defining factor on what makes a child have autism. So then we get to talking about the meds that hes on and I told her that hes really calm because of it. Well she tells me that the autistic traits he has are because of his ADHD...not the other way around. I started to think about it a little bit and figured she must be right. So then we talk about his aggression. She thinks he might have anxiety. Which is what his DP thought too...so we may go on with that but im not pressing anything. So she prescribes him a drug called Rispidal. Its to help calm and not be so aggressive and anxious. When he was on it...things were great. He was not aggressive...did not hurt tyler, I didn't hear any tantrums, no pounding on walls and throwing things when he was mad. But if I missed a dose it would get really bad. I was giving him .25 mg 3 times a day. And on top of that his vyvanse for his ADHD. So last week, we went to his DP appt again and I told her everything that we talked about at this other appt. And she was beyond upset at this doctor. For one..we were giving Jacob basically 2 of the same meds and we never knew it. So he was getting the same med twice basically. and the dosage that the psych prescribed is VERY strong for a little 5 yr old boy with no meat on his bones. So now we have to go get his blood tested to make sure everything in his body is running fine. I guess the reason why he would get so violent and angry when he didn't have it was because of the withdrawal. He was already addicted to it just being on it that short of time. I haven't given it to him since and I don't think I will anymore. He is back to being on no meds right now so we have to figure out another plan to get him calm and back to focusing so that we can get him ready to go back to school next year.